Tuesday, May 25, 2010 @ 2:32:00 AM
I am currently watching 小孩不笨 drama on youtube. Quite interesting yea! But sometime whenever i saw some parts where the mum beats the child and also forcing him, i was liked super pissed and sad abt it, mainly is pissed. Cos my mum did that to me before, and now still doing it!
I am problematic...
My mum and most of your mums are completely different! Okay, straight to the point. She likes to forced me, boss around like one piece of shit, and last time 我是从小被她打到大的. She has that arrogant look and that if you talk to her just for a mere an hour you will get sick and fucked up! Everytime what she said, everyone of us has to listen to her. Wlao eh! I dun know why i get so pissed now but whenever i saw parents beating up or perhaps scolding loudly in public, i will have to urge to bash them up, esp mums. Yeah i know you guys may seem to be saying that i am not filial but please try to comprehend my situation. My mum loves to complain, haiz, nothing can satisfy her. Everytime i want to talk to her about some things, she will somehow change the topic to studies, studies, studies. And you know what, since young, my mum wants me to go JC. Let me tell you a fact:
Got my Os results 2 plus years ago and it was a result that can go jc de. But i dun want! Haiz, well she just said why not i try JC instead of poly or other institution. She should know well that i am not that kind of studying types de. I remember that time i quarreled with her just over this due to this incident and another ''malign me without questioning with understanding ''. WTF man! And i thought my grandma will help me, but no! She sided with her saying your mum wants you to go jc for my own good, but i know freaking well that i will suffer in there. And she scolded me for not listening to her. Fuck them really!!!
And i also remember a time when my mum threw away my chinese chess set that costs me $7. That was my chess set, and she dun have the right to do that de!!! She threw it again cos my studies wasnt good. And i tried to attempt suicide 3 times but i jus dun dare, cos...i scared to die, i scared to go hell sia....haizzzzzzzz
Since young my mum loves to target me cos i am the oldest. I pity most of your parents really. And its been a long time since she praised me le! Haiz, i cant do anything cos thats wad God give me de. And during my Os, she even forced to sell the piano cos i did not study well! I mean wtf, really wtf!!! And she really dun care of my pride, all she care is her pride. When she does things wrong, she will push the blame on us, typically me!!! And of course malign me! ANd yea, she calls me stupid before, well you see which person would like to be labeled as stupid? Then thats her fault, who asked her to give birth to me. You think this was nice, how i wish i am 21 now!
Sometimes i played the piano, she would say its noisy. C'mon, which piece will sound nice when its in practice and pieces i chose were very emotional and alot of agitated moments. Is that call praise? To me thats an insult, practiced for so long only to let her insult.
And i dun like home! Home to me is like hellish, only my dad is nice, talk to me nicely, my mum is like...i am just be patience nowadays and dun want blow things up de. But sometimes when it is at the utmost limit, you just cant control de. Haizzz....
And i dun tell her alot of things. Many of my things my mum knows, my friends know too. Many of my things my friends know, my mum doesnt know. Cos i know one thing will sure to happen. Quarrel. I had a gf i dun even want to tell her, i had a fight with ppl i dun even want to tell her too, even if i hav any prob i will not tell her. And one more thing, she does not even have time for me to crap all this. I tried telling her some of my probs my she said she was busy, now cannot tell meh?? Then i was like wtf, the way you say now its like i no mood tell le. WTF man really...
Okay i have no mood now, i just suddenly thought of how my mum treated me. And i still remember an occasion when i was 4 years old when i nvr did something wrong and she beat me up like one fucking hell with a fucking cane. I just cant forget it! Next time i will share with you guys. ANd sorry for being vulgar now!!!
Dear Priscilla,
I understand how you feel when you were pissed le. I can really felt that horrible and that boiling feeling especially when things arent going your way, and i promise to be more sensitive to you bah.
Jierong
