Monday, May 31, 2010 @ 11:21:00 AM
I believe theres love right? I mean there is really right?
Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 10:00:00 PM
Guess i am really so f***ed up now. Haiz, nvm...
She rejected me a total of 37 times le.
Friday, May 28, 2010 @ 6:53:00 PM
Okay, I am really not in a good mood now, any time can blow up de. Damn pissed, the rain spoiled my day, and somemore things. K, nvm, its so irritating now.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010 @ 2:32:00 AM
I am currently watching 小孩不笨 drama on youtube. Quite interesting yea! But sometime whenever i saw some parts where the mum beats the child and also forcing him, i was liked super pissed and sad abt it, mainly is pissed. Cos my mum did that to me before, and now still doing it!
I am problematic...
My mum and most of your mums are completely different! Okay, straight to the point. She likes to forced me, boss around like one piece of shit, and last time 我是从小被她打到大的. She has that arrogant look and that if you talk to her just for a mere an hour you will get sick and fucked up! Everytime what she said, everyone of us has to listen to her. Wlao eh! I dun know why i get so pissed now but whenever i saw parents beating up or perhaps scolding loudly in public, i will have to urge to bash them up, esp mums. Yeah i know you guys may seem to be saying that i am not filial but please try to comprehend my situation. My mum loves to complain, haiz, nothing can satisfy her. Everytime i want to talk to her about some things, she will somehow change the topic to studies, studies, studies. And you know what, since young, my mum wants me to go JC. Let me tell you a fact:
Got my Os results 2 plus years ago and it was a result that can go jc de. But i dun want! Haiz, well she just said why not i try JC instead of poly or other institution. She should know well that i am not that kind of studying types de. I remember that time i quarreled with her just over this due to this incident and another ''malign me without questioning with understanding ''. WTF man! And i thought my grandma will help me, but no! She sided with her saying your mum wants you to go jc for my own good, but i know freaking well that i will suffer in there. And she scolded me for not listening to her. Fuck them really!!!
And i also remember a time when my mum threw away my chinese chess set that costs me $7. That was my chess set, and she dun have the right to do that de!!! She threw it again cos my studies wasnt good. And i tried to attempt suicide 3 times but i jus dun dare, cos...i scared to die, i scared to go hell sia....haizzzzzzzz
Since young my mum loves to target me cos i am the oldest. I pity most of your parents really. And its been a long time since she praised me le! Haiz, i cant do anything cos thats wad God give me de. And during my Os, she even forced to sell the piano cos i did not study well! I mean wtf, really wtf!!! And she really dun care of my pride, all she care is her pride. When she does things wrong, she will push the blame on us, typically me!!! And of course malign me! ANd yea, she calls me stupid before, well you see which person would like to be labeled as stupid? Then thats her fault, who asked her to give birth to me. You think this was nice, how i wish i am 21 now!
Sometimes i played the piano, she would say its noisy. C'mon, which piece will sound nice when its in practice and pieces i chose were very emotional and alot of agitated moments. Is that call praise? To me thats an insult, practiced for so long only to let her insult.
And i dun like home! Home to me is like hellish, only my dad is nice, talk to me nicely, my mum is like...i am just be patience nowadays and dun want blow things up de. But sometimes when it is at the utmost limit, you just cant control de. Haizzz....
And i dun tell her alot of things. Many of my things my mum knows, my friends know too. Many of my things my friends know, my mum doesnt know. Cos i know one thing will sure to happen. Quarrel. I had a gf i dun even want to tell her, i had a fight with ppl i dun even want to tell her too, even if i hav any prob i will not tell her. And one more thing, she does not even have time for me to crap all this. I tried telling her some of my probs my she said she was busy, now cannot tell meh?? Then i was like wtf, the way you say now its like i no mood tell le. WTF man really...
Okay i have no mood now, i just suddenly thought of how my mum treated me. And i still remember an occasion when i was 4 years old when i nvr did something wrong and she beat me up like one fucking hell with a fucking cane. I just cant forget it! Next time i will share with you guys. ANd sorry for being vulgar now!!!
Dear Priscilla,
I understand how you feel when you were pissed le. I can really felt that horrible and that boiling feeling especially when things arent going your way, and i promise to be more sensitive to you bah.
Jierong
Monday, May 24, 2010 @ 3:52:00 PM
Sunday:
Went to church as early as 8am bah, then reach there did some photocopying, then cell starts, art today. After that went service, was to pianist then. Lunched and went to GDOP at Max Pavillion and Expo. Think got 3000+ youths attend bah, and the place was like cold bah, but not as cold as last time. Haha! After the event we went to Changi Airport ate dinner (Mac), shopped and camwhoring and videoing. Me, Jordan, Guo Qiang, Priscilla, Gloria and Vivian were like crazy ppl there running here and there, walking aimlessly there, keep repeating the places that we have went! Okay, crazy ppl did crazy things and we were lucky we did not get caught there! Anyway was damn full can! After that we trained home, and yea, accidentally did something wrong and made someone angry, haiz, sadded. End off with a night like this, so discouraging! Then went online, did some research on music then helped Vivian with some things. Sleep!
Monday (Today),
Woke up at 8am, same thing, jogged and practice piano. Nice, got improved, but later sure deproved again, haizzzz! K never mind, at night piano lesson, tmr hiking with Jordan and school starts at 2 Aug 2010, damn busy. K, gtg, online later bah...
Sunday, May 23, 2010 @ 11:21:00 PM
Haiz, arghhhhhhh! I want cry le la!!!!! Improvement to deprovement sia :( sadded sia! Really tears want drop.
Priscilla,
Sorry for disturbing you today! Cos perhaps the reason is cos i seldom talk to you le ma (improvement) then now see you then so called disturb you (deprovement). Really damn bad! Hope you read this, i really mean it.... Sorry alot.......
Jierong (Dumb guy)
@ 12:52:00 AM
Dedicated to Priscilla,
Anyway i cant sleep le :) Cos i have improved, BUT, i wun be complacent, in fact, i will work harder de. I promise! No matter how tough, i will endure, i have endured waves after waves of temptation, so please mus give me more chances. Anyway, i wun disappoint you de :)Yay! And really great to see you fine today :) Haha...... MISSSS YOUU :D
Jierong
Okay, back to business, i am damn full now, reach custom liao!
Anyway idk why my mum likes to exaggerate things de sia. Wlao, say i woke up until so late. I where got, i woke up damn early de lo! she not in house of course dun know la! Dun anyhow say la -.- Malign me sia, wlao think of my feeling ma, go tell ppl also -.-
Anyway i try sleep early , kays bye.
Thursday, May 20, 2010 @ 4:18:00 PM
Dedicated to Priscilla,
Hey, I hope you dun feel sad. Its alright to be sad cos of exam matters, but i hope it wun affect you. I understand the feeling cos I have experienced it umpteen times le. But do get up asap yea, dun give up. 不要放弃, 满有能力.
And seeing you like this makes me feel bad and worry too. Take a bath or a nap and this will cool you down. Cry in the toilet if you want, it makes you feel better, i did that alot of times before, and it works. Once you cry finish already, you will feel tired automatically, then you will sleep soundly :)
So dun ever giveee up :) And i have never given up on you either...
Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 11:38:00 PM
I went to buy candy this morning
10 am
Fucked me up on the inside
Burned my throat
Was it really candy that I bought?
Next thing I know
Time is my friend
Or is it just pretend?
I wonder how many of my scars
Candy would be able to mend
Aisle three
Get more of that candy
The light is dim here
But it's all clear
The candy I want to get
Makes me easily forget
So I buy candy
More and more candy
Strawberry
Blueberry
And lots of other flavors too
Whatever it takes
To get me out of this blues
My shadow looks at me with discontent
Shakes its head,
Points its finger back at me
Like I should be feeling guilty
But I couldn't care less
Candy fills my emptiness
Like a baby, I'll even stain my dress
I buy candy
More and more candy
Now I'm in my own illusion
The effect scurries fast
But I like it, like the confusion
So bad, I want it to last
Don't judge me this way
I'll give you some candy
Just chill, relax and lay
Tomorrow's a new box of candy
A new day…
I reach for my imaginary doorknob
Flip it open
No candy there
So I weep and sob
Without my sweetener
The tea isn't tea
The coffee isn't coffee
Again you've taken away
The only thing that's left for me
Give me back my candy
Far away I'm sailing
Into a dream, where you're always failing
It could just be me
No it's not
It's what I see
When candy is inside my blood
Smiles fill my face like a flood
It burns; it's one of candy's flaws
But to feel that flame
I'd beg and crawl
You've taken the pleasure away
Left the candy wrapper for display
Give me back my candy
More and more Candy.
Lynn El Amine
@ 5:23:00 PM
Okay dumb Gloria! You spoil the whole thing!!! bleh~
Woke up with a bad tummy ache, wah sian diao, spoil my day, ate some medicine then its okay! Going Central anyway (Well, can say le, since Gloria Chung let the mice out of the bags already), took MRT to Clarke Quay, and its raining a little la, but damn cool! Went to the basement and buy some stickies and a big lollipop! And its just for someone de! Okay 不要说做 brother 没有给你好处, GLoria CHung i got buy some for you. Anyway its a bit ex, but worth it :)
Then walked to Fort Canning then to Plaza Singapura, bought a music score title, Gershwin's 3 Piano Preludes for the piano. Kays, its damn difficult. Then went walk walk around, then went home.
Arghh, Gloria Chunggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bleh~~
Tuesday, May 18, 2010 @ 2:31:00 AM
Okay, in the middle of the night, i am hungry now! So just made a cup of noodle! Cant sleep also la, keep thinking about piano..??!!
Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 6:38:00 PM
Opps, i owe someone candies :)
Monday, May 10, 2010 @ 2:04:00 AM
Yay! Chelsea won the Premier League Title :) Hahaha, so damn happy for the team! Thrashed Wigan 8-0 to round off a thrilling performance this season. Drogba got hat trick so he hoe is the top scorer of the EPL with 29 goals :) Hahahaha :) And Chelsea also got another record broken, 103 goals in the EPL total this season, the most in history :)
Okay, I am damn happy now but not my thumb, cos i injured my thumb, so its so numb now that i cant move much! Not pain but really cant take it, i got to play the piano de hor! Sadded, and i want to record 4 songs, one of them is the Father's Day Song :)
Okay, Chelsea end their season with high note, so left only the FA cup against Portsmouth next week. And Chelsea gonna win it :)))
Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 11:43:00 PM
I dun know what to do now le...
Friday, May 7, 2010 @ 2:59:00 AM
Monitor 说: 我好惨啊每天给人看.
Keyboard 说: 我更惨啊, 每天给人打.
Mouse 说: 我才惨, 每天给人摸.
USB 机 说: 我更惨! 每天给人插.
Diskette 机 说: 我更惨, 每有人来插我.
Thunbdrive 说: 谁有我惨? 这边插完就去那边插, 一不小心还要被感染.
CPU 电脑主机 说: 不要以为我被很多东西插会很爽, 他们插进来之后就不动了, 那才是难受啊!
最后, Speaker 说: 还说呢...明明是你们被插, 为什么都是我在叫呢?
Haha! Anyway i am super tired cos i nvr slept for a night :(
Wednesday, May 5, 2010 @ 11:59:00 PM
Hey! Suddenly i feel the urge to perform magic :) haha, just being random anyway!
Went to church to practice for Sunday's worship :) Hmmm, not bad the songs! Anyway i am ready to publish another song, i have edited it already. Just hope some people may listen to my works one fine day :)
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@ 12:02:00 AM
Anyway I decided to unofficially publish one of my songs here:
为什么不回我简讯
词, 曲: 何杰融
Verse
当我听见你的声音,
我就似乎看见你的背影。
望着星星,
一颗两颗围绕着月亮
仿佛向你微笑。
Bridge
但我心里却想起那蒙蒙回忆。我就那起手机发了简讯就耐心等你回应。Chorus为什么不回我简讯? 为何不了解我心意? 请你告诉我该怎么做? 为什么不回我简讯? 难道是我错怪你? 我真希望你能回应我发给你的简讯!Of course theres a reason of me writing this song, and its written in the middle of a night. Can't sleep that time! Hmmm, now also :) And dumb internet connection! I can't watch youtube videos! Damn freaking dumb sia -.- Haizzz :(
