Sunday, April 25, 2010 @ 2:32:00 AM
Just want to pour out these things from my heart:
Sometimes i just think that its really tiring! Tired and weary! i dun know if i am making the right choice, but 6 mths to be really is an achievement, but sadly to say on the other hand, may be a wrong choice too, and also a miserable choice. Pray pray pray, looks like God's answer is wait! I was expecting de. Sometimes i will just ponder, what should i do? But i dun want to go back to square 1. But on the other hand, its hard to give up...you see the situation i am facing now? Maybe thats typical teenage problems. Its so freaking headache and heartache sometimes. I can't be a perfect person also, trying to but thats...seemingly impossible. Why can't i just leave this country? Or perhaps this world?? Its just suffering here. And sometimes people also diao me for some reasons cos they themselves dun like it, but they jus dun know my style. If they are jus not used to it then seriously thats their own prob, if not jus come and kill me! Okay, lets not change the topic! Seriously its damn damn stress especially when it comes to such things. I can open myself to other girls in this 6 months and not waste time here, but its just hard la!!! And i am forcing myself not to look at other girls and and also forcing myself not to like though i almost like 2 girls in these 6 months but i just forced myself to divert myself back to her! And in these 6 months, i have 1 girl who likes me, but i indirectly rejected her, and i did not even want to know her better. See, its all for your sake! Sometimes i blamed God for putting me as a guy! Well, haiz, cant too!!! I know you will read this! And i know you will understand what i am talking about, but what can i do? Nothing right, but pray and action...SOmetimes, its my style that dun suit you so i change, so please tell me where the hell should i change more, its hard sia!!! Want cry le la, i dun care! F***ed up!!!! Sorry, i dun used much vulgarities, but i can stand it le, hope you can understand the situation i am living in now...
Nites!
