Sunday, September 20, 2009 @ 12:28:00 AM
The initial thought of backing out of the flag day last min came upon me, but God's will was vice versa.
Today's flag day was okay, I enjoyed it throughout. But today's rain spoil the day. It was cold and windy. Wanting was there ''cheating'' at the end. She asked 2 of the kids in our church to help her do he donation. LOL! Then I was there so ''diao'' -.- Then Hui Yuh also ''diao'' me back, asked me whether can slack or not. The whole thing is I never slack, Wanting wanna had breakfast so I followed her lo. Then why "diao" me??? Forgot sis handphone number, I really deserved it man, HAHAHA!
Went back church early to hand in the donation then went home, bathe and get ready for work. It was like I was going to the same place as the donation lo. The donation is at Jurong East, my workplace downstairs only, then went back there go work. Haha!
Today's teaching was nice. I currently have 5 students, yeah. Next week should be more. The students there have different standards, but sadly to say I have to keep it c0nfidential so can't sa, LOL! (Then dun say in the 1st place lah, diao again). Reached home at about 7:15pm then went to eat dinner then seriously tired and went to sleep le. Sleep until 12:15 midnight then woke up, cuz I dreamt of her again, just can't get over it. Never mind, I 越讲越 sad. Sad, sad, sad is all I can describe my feelings nowadays.
Life is a torment these 3 days. Really, it became one of the stationary points in my life. It really turn upside down, just tooo sudden for me to accept. In trauma now, can't sleep properly and will keep recounting the past. Well, this is the after effects of a breakup. So closed yet the price we had to pay. Well, I deserved what I deserved, but she doesn't deserved it. So its really not fair for her. I am too selfish le, I admit, sorry. Maybe Sorry wun help, yes I agree, have to do some actions. Okay, I am tired now, lets not talk about it...
Signing off:
Jierong
